Although I was not addicted to meth for as long as some people are, I was already starting to loss control of my addiction. Everyone says that you got to control your addiction and not let it control you.
That doesn't happen, eventually all addictions take control of their lives.
Mine started with just using when I needed to stay awake for long periods of time studying or doing whatever. But I would only do a small amount every few days when needed. Then I started having finals in my summer courses of college so I needed to stay awake for a few days at a time and study or work on projects. Then I met my ex boyfriend, which was a heavy daily user. Which then allowed me to release control of my addiction to it's self; It was then that my addiction took control of me.
I won't name names of to who my ex is, out of respect and privacy, but we will refer to him as he, or him, or his
He would want to smoke all day every day, so we would. I went from doing 0.4 grams every 3 or for days to doing a teener (1.75 grams) a day with him. I was in love. I thought I was in love. I thought he was the one for me. It took me a long time to realize he wasn't. Even after you told me to my face he would choose meth over me any day, I still believed he cared for me the way I did for him.
But that is a different story.
Anyways..
after mine and his many break ups I started using uncontrollably. I stayed up for days and days on in staying awake and either painting, playing on the computer, or whoring out in my room. Things for me continued to spiral out of control for me until I finally took a moment to sit back and thank of all the people I know who had been using for years, him (my ex) included. I did not to turn out like them, I had bigger plans for my life. So I flushed what I had left, broke my pipes and all paraphernalia (or however the word is spelt) and never looked back.
To me, that is how I get about quitting drugs, I just quit doing them.
Things for you might be different. But quitting is something everyone can do! No matter how long you have been using you can quit! I'm no expert but let me give you a couple suggestions:
Walta's Suggestions for Getting Sober:
- Make sure you don't try to quit unless you truly fully want to quit using whatever drug it may be you are using
- Destroy all objects that were utensils in your use
- Build a support system, if you don't have anyone that knows you are using and don't use themselves, tell them and tell them you need them to be there to support you.
- Sleep for three days. No matter what your using, it's said that the first three days of recovery are the worse so why not sleep through them if possible? Take time off work or even school so you can sleep
- Be willing and able to talk about your addiction. Be that Narcotics Anonymous , a therapist or counselor, or even a blog. So way that allows you to get things off your chest
- Download an app that counts for you and shows your how many days you have been sober. I use Numerous on my iPhone and its the best
These are the few suggestions I can think of right now that have helped me out a lot. Please feel free to comment and tell me some ideas you have to help build this list.
I know that many of those who read this may not even know me or even know that I was using but again I am proud to say; I Walta have been sober from Meth for 132 days. I'm proud of myself, and I will keep being strong.
I urge anyone who is addicted and that is wanting to get sober to do it! Reach out to me if you need someone to talk to, I am always here for people!
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